Tuesday, January 31, 2012


If you had to sell everything you owned but you could keep one item, what would it be?

This question was posed the day Forbes and I decided to sell our home and possessions to become missionaries.  What would we keep if it were just one item?

The question stumped us.  Just one item?  It seems that nothing makes sense without something else.  I could keep this, but then I would need that.  Just one item?

As I looked around my pristine and clean home this evening tears welled up in my eyes.  I am ready to get rid of it all for the sake of following Jesus.  I am ready to rely on Him and not my things.  And yet it is difficult to separate myself. 

Over the last few weeks I have been on a high.  Excited about the changes and overlooking how difficult this would be.  I am merely human and the comfort of the things around me brings me joy.  I love my couch, and cuddling up next to Forbes with a movie and a cup of tea and a fire.  I like laying in my bed at night, on top of a pillow top mattress with organic cotton sheets.  I enjoy looking stylish as I pull on my boots over my skinny jeans and pair it with a comfy sweater.  This is life and I like it. 

But I am in love with a Savior and excited and willing to serve in a way that I cannot accomplish from the comforts of this home.  I want to be uncomfortable so I learn to fully rely on God.  And right now I am learning that lesson hard. 

There is an offer on our house.  A move is inevitable.  This is real.  And I'm scared.  

I am also so full of joy it pains me to be still.  I'm ready to go, but I'm sad to leave. 

Walking in faith means taking chances and trusting that He will provide.  Walking in faith means selling a house in a faltering economy, taking a hit on what we once believed would be an investment.  Walking in faith means leaving behind our earthly possessions.  All of them...even the pretty ones. 

Matthew 13:44 (I found it Shannon)

"The kingdom of heaven is like treasure hidden in a field. When a man found it, he hid it again, and then in his joy went and sold all he had and bought that field."

I have found the treasure, and I am selling all of my belongings.  My field is the mission field and I am so joyful!

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