Friday, September 28, 2012

One more week down

I have this problem.  A memory problem, if you will.  And I can't even blame it on pregnancy brain.  My husband will forever laugh at me when I attempt to tell someone my age...

"27...I'm 27"

He just shakes his head.

"Am I turning 30 this year?"

More shaking.

For a year we had a sign on the fridge that exclaimed "Happy 27th Birthday" and yet I spent that whole year telling people I was 26. 

So the truth is, I'm 28 years old.  And I forget often enough that Alex just knows he has to keep track for me.  Nowadays when I get asked, he typically just answers before I get a chance.

Well now my memory problem is playing around with my gestation age.  Thirty weeks? Thirty-one? Despite my countdown, I still can't seem to keep it straight.  This morning I was convinced that I was 32 weeks today.  But we just celebrated 32 weeks last Friday. 

I turned to my Baby Bump app and sure enough, today I am 33 weeks!  Oh.My.Goodness! Seven to go!  Where is the time going?  Soon it will be October, and it will be my last full month without a baby.  Without being a mom.  How is that possible?  If you would have asked me at this time last year if I thought this is where I would be I would have exclaimed ABSOLUTELY NOT! However, I couldn't be more excited and thrilled and ready to meet our baby girl.

Every day I fall more and more in love with her.  When she wakes me up at 4am squirming, I grimace, but then I smile, thinking that this is real...she is real.  This morning she was literally dancing in my tummy at 7:30am and I just laid in bed watching her movements through my belly.  She is a little miracle and I am so anxious to meet her. 

Last night I watched the National Geographic documentary "In The Womb."  I almost started crying realizing what a true wonder life is.  The happenstance that a baby can come out of all those complex systems is beyond amazing.  It is nothing short of a miracle and I truly believe only God could create a life in such a remarkable way. 

One amazing fact from the video is that only 50% of all conceptions result in birth.  How can that be and yet I am lucky enough to carry this child, already to a point that we know her life can be sustained.  We know that she can survive.  I fell more and more in love with her knowing what a miracle her life is. 

So 33 down...7 to go! I am trying so hard to focus on the "right now" instead of 7 weeks from now.  I don't want to miss out on these moments with Alex when it is still just 2 instead of 3.  I don't want to miss out on time with friends before life becomes crazy.  In an effort to stay in the moment, I have created a quick bucket list for us this Fall.  These are our must-dos before Eleanor arrives.
I'm hoping this will help us have just a little more fun before everything changes!

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