Sunday, December 1, 2013
God is Great. Not just because of sweet husbands, good babies and generous friends. For this we are thankful. But God is also great because He is just. And He is also merciful. I am not deserving of the life that I live. I wouldn't be deserving of any life. But for a Savior I get to live. I live with abundant joy because my life was bought with a price. Jesus died so I may live. I, a poor sinner. I choose wrong more often than I choose right. I am selfish. And I am unworthy. But he loved me anyway. He has always loved me. And now I get to Him in return. I get to be a wife, and I get to be a mom. But most importantly, I get to be a Christian, a follower of Jesus Christ. And I get to be a friend of the One Most High, and I get to love Him.
When I think about the people I love and question whether they understand fully the love of God, my heart weeps. I don't know how to tell others about God. I get tongue-tied and lost in my words. I find it hard to explain how deep and magnificent His love is. It is difficult to explain something that is so much bigger and better than words can describe. God is the author and creator of life and I hope that you see that. I hope that you can understand how much He loves you and begs for your attention. I pray that you will someday give your life wholly to God. That you would experience true joy in Him.
It is hard, I know that. As people of this world, to understand something so far off, it is too difficult. When we lean on our own understanding it is impossible. When pride stands in the way, and we fear looking weak or ashamed we turn God away. When others' opinions of us is more important than His, we shun our Lord. If you are a parent of a teenager, imagine how you felt when they suddenly thought you were no longer cool enough. When the world around her gave her all the answers and her friends and belongings were more important than you. Did that break your heart? Did you want to shake her and make her understand that you love her and that you will always be there for her? Did you want to pull her into a tight embrace and protect her always? You once were her entire world. You made her after all. And now she has turned her back on you.
Oh yes, that is how God feels. And more. He is jealous for you. He wants you to know Him. To hear Him when He speaks. To love Him. And to choose Him. He sent His only son to die, to save you. That's how much He loves you. And because I love you too, I am sharing this with you. It isn't that hard after all. It's just a confession that He is Lord. And an admission that you trust Him.
How grateful I am that I am loved so incredibly. How thankful for a life and an opportunity to share His word. Oh, how thankful for this space that I have inhabited for four amazing years, to chronicle so much of my life. Thank you for being here and participating in this journey. May God be with you always!