So truth is the theme of the year it seems. It is the series we are working on in church and it is the bible study I am taking on Thursday mornings. We are asking tough questions like Who is God? And finding the truth to such a loaded question is not easy. Luckily, while seeking answers to these hard questions, I am finding truths to so many other small questions. I am recognizing the lies that I'm living and changing my ways of thinking.
This week's lie:
I will always struggle with food addiction/disordered eating.
Man, this one is hard to tackle. Do you have an addiction in your life? Are you convinced it will just always be with you and you will never be free? Once upon a time I smoked cigarettes. And boy was I ever addicted. In my short life, I was addicted to cigarettes for nearly 10 years! Back then, if asked, I would have told you I could never quit. It was not in my power. And I was right. Quitting smoking was not in my power. I couldn't quit. Only by the grace of God do I sit here now, noticing others smoking, and realizing how free I am from that addiction.
Someday I will also quit this food addiction. Someday I will be free. Because that is who God created me to be.
Matthew 6:28-34 “And why do you worry about clothes? See how the flowers of the field grow. They do not labor or spin. Yet I tell you that not even Solomon in all his splendor was dressed like one of these. If
that is how God clothes the grass of the field, which is here today and
tomorrow is thrown into the fire, will he not much more clothe you—you
of little faith? So do not worry, saying, ‘What shall we eat?’ or ‘What shall we drink?’ or ‘What shall we wear?’ For the pagans run after all these things, and your heavenly Father knows that you need them. But seek first his kingdom and his righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well. Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own.
I just finished reading in Exodus about God providing manna and quail for the Israelites. “I will rain down bread from heaven for you." he tells them. I know that God provides every need that I have, and like the Israelites I tend to doubt and lose faith. I toil each day with thoughts of food, needing and wanting more. And yet I know it is all there for me. It is provided. It deserves no attention and stress. Some day I will get this. Someday my emotions will no longer be tied to something that was meant to fulfill and satisfy me on a purely physical level. I will look to God to fill that emotional gap in me, instead of food. I know that this is true. And I pray for it to come.
Maybe half the battle is recognizing I am living a lie. Each time my brain switches to the lie, I will remind myself of the truth. God is my provider. God is my comfort. Not food.
What lies are you buying into? What is the truth and how can you remind yourself?