Sick

It is a scary feeling to wake up sick knowing you are staring down the day with mom duties.  I am a pitiful sick person in general, but this morning I was in absolute fear of the day to come.

After I nursed Eleanor at 2am and laid back down I get this awful feeling in my stomach.  I couldn't tell immediately if it was just a weird feeling or a hurt feeling and eventually I nodded back off to sleep.

But when 6am rolled around and we woke up once again, it was evident what I was experiencing.  I whined to Alex that I couldn't do it, I couldn't be sick and be a mom.  There is no way.  In my head I really wanted to be supermom and blow it off like it was no big deal, all moms have to face this reality at some point.  But, as I mentioned above, I am a pitiful sick person.

Usually Eleanor and I are pretty much up at six.  We might take a few cat naps before her long morning nap.  But today Alex worked some magic on her after I nursed her.  He changed her diaper, swaddled her up and put her back down to sleep.  The angel slept until 9am!  And so did I!

My attitude changed drastically after that.  The additional sleep did some good.  I popped a few Ibuprofen and the body aches subsided a little.  My stomach wasn't cramping as bad and I thought to myself, "I can do this!"

Perhaps I have a very mild case of a stomach bug, or being a mom distracts you from the reality of pain, but I actually am getting through the day pretty seamlessly.  I jumped on the opportunity to run an errand for a friend so we could get out of the house and continue to distract myself.  I ran a few other errands while we were out, and by the time we were headed back for home I was ready to be back.  My stomach still hurts, my body is tired and achy.  But slowly and surely I will get through this day.  I just pray that my baby doesn't get sick too!