Tuesday, June 7, 2011

Faith

Today I was stuck.  The AC at the house wasn't working.  The internet wasn't working.  Thankfully my oven was working again.  But I was stuck waiting on technicians all day.  Without internet all day I was forced to take most of the day off work.  But what to do with little work, no internet, home all day? 

Lots of cooking happened.  I made another loaf of bread.  I put together a recipe from my favorite vegan inspiration, Alicia Silverstone's Kind Diet.  I spent some time relaxing on the couch with the fans blowing in my face, catching up on Twitter on my phone.  I alternated between chapters of Don't Change the Channel and articles in the latest Martha Stewart Magazine. 

Amidst all of the non-internet related distractions, I still found time to do a little thinking.  I have felt a bit out of control this week and I needed a moment to slow down.  It had been a long while since I devoted part of my morning to a daily quiet time with God and I have known for several weeks that it was missing from my routine.  So this morning I had a little catch up to do.  God and I needed to get on the same page about several things (as in God needed me on his page!).  I felt refreshed after.  Sort of like a cool breeze before a storm on a hot and humid day. 

I finished my prayers this morning feeling full of gratitude.  I have overlooked how fortunate I am this week and instead have been feeling low and full of self-pity.  But while things are not perfect around these parts, I understand that in everything their is hope, joy and a future.  I have been a bit down this week about family, and while things aren't improved I can look forward and be thankful that I have a family.  Thankful that I have the opportunity to work on relationships. 

I have also been on a little spending frenzy this week and desperately needed to pull in the reigns.  I was feeling very guilty about my purchases and not happy about my depleting bank account.  I want to be a better steward of my money and was really beating myself up.  In quieting my mind and speaking to God this morning, I was able to reset my thinking.  To release the guilt, and come away with a new attitude and focus for my spending.  I can't change the past, but I can change the future.  Then this morning I read a friend's blog and the scripture she chose today, sung to me!

For the pagans run after all these things, and your heavenly Father knows that you need them. But seek first his kingdom and his righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well. 

~Matthew 6:32-33
 
So now, after some much needed me time, a break from internet, tv and blogging this morning, I am now feeling more like me again.  I feel as if I am able to seek God first, and therefore make better decisions, be in better spirits, and be joyful... although nothing changed but my attitude.  

2 comments:

  1. I know when ever i am super busy and always in a rush and i neglect my daily quiet time, its just going to get more hectic until i sit down and have some God time:) And its so true that we need to be on God's page, not mine. Besides, His plan for my life is way more interesting then anything i could ever imagine!


    I hope your internet and AC got fixed:):):)

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  2. Sometimes we experience a forced 'quiet time' when we need it the most. I'm glad you had some down time to collect your thoughts and just breathe... I could use some of the same!

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