Friday, April 1, 2011

Greasy, Grimey

My stomach is currently a grease pit.  Lunch and dinner today definitely left something to be desired.  Luckily for me, the point of both meals was not the food, but the company.  I think the possibility that I stuck 100% to my vegan diet today is slim to none, despite my best efforts.  It's fine though, I operate with grace when it comes to eating out.  At the end of the day it isn't worth causing a scene for a few tablespoons of butter. 
Butter seems to be the hardest ingredient to avoid.  Although I am always specific about my order I almost always can taste butter on my cooked veggies, rice or noodles.  Last weekend my toast was served with butter and tonight I'm pretty sure my fajitas were soaked in butter.  Not the dish above however, that was my hibachi lunch and I watched like a hawk as they prepared my meal.  No butter, but lots of grease.

Like I mentioned, my meals out had little to do with the quality of food I received and more to do with the people involved.  I attended an all woman's networking group for lunch today and for dinner I had my friend Brandy's birthday to celebrate.
Obviously she enjoyed the attention! 

So now I am relaxing on the couch, trying to smooth my grumbly belly with ginger chews and Chamomile tea.  However, I think dark chocolate would be a much better cure, but I don't seem to have any on hand! 

For balance, I made a green smoothie for breakfast today:
And as I have seen done on countless other blogs, I decided to eat it with a spoon served in a bowl.  I believe it goes by the acronym: SIAB (Smoothie in a bowl).  I topped mine with some cereal and dried fruit.

So today is already April 1st!  Can you believe it?  It is once again time for a 2011 New Year's Resolution Update.  After much deliberation, I have actually decided to amend my resolutions.  You see, this year has taken an unexpected turn.  Mr. Kummerow and I were not planning to spend half of our summer in Africa when I originally set my goals.  I was in the midst of marathon training and racing was all I seemed to have on the brain in late December.  Sitting here, three months later, I have reevaluated my goals.  I would go so far as to say that I am entirely a different person today spiritually, physically, emotionally. 

Spiritually: I have been focused externally much more than at the beginning of 2011.  Planning a trip like ours, I have begun to see things in a different light.  Material possessions and goals aren't quite so important to me anymore.  So this month, I will not be budgeting to buy Easter decorations when they go on sale.  I am also not planning any races this spring/early summer because we have redirected all of our funds into savings or for the mission trip.

Physically: Running the marathon took every last ounce out of me.  It took me a full month to begin running again, however I rediscovered a joy in working out that I had lost during training.  During training, I was injured and burnt out.  But after my race I began working out for fun.  Cross-training, weight lifting, pilates!  Now I work out 5 to 6 days a week, but I basically choose what type of activity I want to do based on how I feel and what sounds like fun.  I don't stress about missing a work out and I go easy on myself.  I feel great!  I love not being so regimented.  Without a training plan I am free to do what I please and do what makes me feel good.  So beyond my spiritual reasons for not racing this spring, I have a physical reason for not training.

Emotionally:  Around the beginning of 2011 I received shocking news that my parents were separating, and then not too long after I found out they were getting a divorce.  This news brought me literally to my knees and I have experienced heart break this year like I never have in my entire life.  Before meeting Mr. Kummerow I only ever had one boyfriend...or at least one serious boyfriend.  While that break up was difficult, looking back I can tell I wasn't really in love.  Since I am happily married to my one and only love I have never really experienced true heart break before.  In my adult life I have become a little stoic with my feelings.  I don't get sad easily (more likely I get mad).  Even funerals don't make me cry.  But this divorce has made me cry.  Many times.  It's been nearly 3 months since I received news about the divorce and I am still in denial, I still question my parents every time I talk to them.  I am sort of living in this alternate reality where I don't believe this is really happening.  So how has this affected my 2011 goals?  Well, I would just say overall I am more in tune to my own marriage relationship.  Does it matter so much if I complete a triathlon this year?  Not really.  But does it matter if I make it through 2011 still married? and 2012? and 2013?  And on and on?  Absolutely.  Divorce can happen to anyone, even my parents.  And that is why I am choosing to focus more on my marriage and less on things that just aren't as important.

So tomorrow I will be drafting some new goals.  I am a little disappointed that 2011 New Year's Resolutions aren't necessarily going to happen.  Afterall, we don't make resolutions thinking we will break them.  But I am such a different person now than I was then.  Amazing and wonderful changes have taken place within me over the last few months and I want that to be reflected in the goals I set out to achieve.  You understand, right?

1 comment:

  1. good goals, girl, good goals. I am so sorry for your heartache over your parents. I'll be thinking of you. xoxo